A Lot of Pain
I have a lot of pain in side the tears keep falling from my eyes. It’s building like a fire waiting to erupt don’t want to be corrupt or corrupted enough enough I say get out of my head Thoughts of destruction and pain all for what life’s game done with this I just wish for a little simple bliss. Mind won’t stop tick toc tick toc why do we follow a clock? So much time but we all must stay in line. Wow for what corruption is in these laws they are a sin. We keep fighting within our minds fucked up cursing all the time. We all won’t walk that line. But you know it will all be just fine. Reception deception left around all fenced in block by the brigade waiting to shoot when the man says. Enough enough let go your not so tuff. I like it rough, I like it slow,
I like it soft like the feeling of snow. Don’t put that blow up your nose take a minuet and chill out.
Stop fusing because there’s nothing to cry about. It’s all in your head now lay down and go to bed.
Rest your little head for the night in the morning we’ll start a new fight shinning in white light.
Tired and tried to many days to ride live life or die with out living.
I want the poorer things it makes me feel alive greed money it all runs dry but when you know how to survive you can just reside on the earth and let it give birth to the fruits of your day.
Everything will come your way in time when time is needed guided light and soul deeper lets take it all a little steeper leave out all the bleeper’s and just keep trekking up to the top find a way where you can spot a clearing of sight for you to take flight on a new path of truth and love hope and freedom a spirit cleansed one welcoming amends and sacrificing all for a friend. When it comes to the end will they be there or will they not its not my job to patrol like a cop. If it is it will be if its not then say la vi give it all to the birds and the bees because when I die I drift out to see. Looking for something inside will hope rise will light shine cant figure this out at all I try to play ball. But continually fall. Is there any hope for it all?
Don’t give up just keep fighting is it the spirit? the will? The fire? Because I’m a burnt out soul in the nights darkest fire. Cant seem to let it all go cant seem to sow a reaper and a keeper of the light I shine bright. I am hiding behind darkness a lost soul finds another and they travel down the ladder together. Which ways up but they go down blind wake up wake up They say get out of your head. Wake up wake up today it will all be okay. Troubles trials tribulations and success what is all for because now we are just one big giant mess. Stress Stress Stress is it really best? It keeps making all kinds of mess. Lord let me be laid to rest.
An awakening is on the horizon or so I thought Regress not progressing back and forth.
Check out this article the SF Weekly posted about Abigail the Rock Opera They posted one of my videos on the web article.
You can scroll down to Dreams Coming True heading and watch the video Tituba's Tale
Stay tuned it maybe awhile ww.youtube.com/user/christinamsmith2482
Episode 2 stick with it the end is the best.....
Hey everyone I just added a new deck please take a look at the top two and let me know which one you like the most and why..... I am having trouble picking but I am moving toward the one on the right, it looks like the building is catching fire and erupting like a volcano.
Greatly appreciate your feedback..
Let me know which one you like more!
Well let me just start by saying that the Meaning of Filo just finished its New York Premier yesterday and will have it's LA premier on Oct 29th so all you out there down south go check it out. Reel Recovery Film Festival. Check out facebook event for more info. We already had our SF one last year or the year before so if you are in SF you missed it.
New sakte photos that will be used for my ongoing Broken Skate board Project and just some etra skate photos check them out here
On another note Got some new gear coming excite to finally have it all come together again. Still need to find a 508 Sekonic Light meter for a good cheap price. On One of my moves I lost it and it was expensive just can't afford that right now.
My silent horror movie will be up soon so stay tuned.
Baphomet has been online I will post it right now.
One other thing Devil's Face music video was updated and the audio has been fixed so go check it out there are some new changes.
Abigail: the Salem Witch Trials Rock Opera by Michael Xavier, Daniel Knop and Kurt Brown will be happening again soon so keep an eye out. There are a few new cast members and I can't wait to see how awesome it will be this year. The venue is Danzhaus off the 19 polk line in sf Event Link I posted some video clips I shot at last years performance below the Baphomet & Updated Devil's Face videos.
As for this huge feature it has been put on hold :-( but it is for the best so I can get my personal work shot I think that will make it all worth it for me. I would rather be shooting my own movies then other peoples so what is stopping me????? Answer??????? working on it!!!!!
Have an amazing day it is beautiful here at the beach once again. So go out and enjoy the sun.
Well the other day was fun and all making magic wands again, news came forward that the Monerary Pop festival has cancled stage two where Roadside was going to play so I am no longer going down and shooting them or gowing to festival. But on the upside I am heading to the new skatepark opening in SF on Sat. which I will be able to finish the much needed photos of skateboarders for my series.... YEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Today was looking for some jobage and found an opportunity I hope I get it I know I am worthy. Wish me good luck all cause I really need a job in my field..
Oh yeah I also shot a one page horror story that will be up sometime by hte end of next week so keep an eye out.
Well thanks again for stopping by.
I was just visiting my myspace and stummbled across a blog post I wrote back in 2006 sometime.
Christina M. Smith
Filmmaker & Photographer